Soak it all in
It's a game you can't win
Enjoy the ride
At the end of the water
A red sun is risin'
And the stars are all goin' away
And if you're too busy talkin'
You're not busy listenin'
To hear what the land has to say
Quiet your mind"
- Zac Brown Band-
Today is an impossibly beautiful day, and it is impossibly hard to sit behind my desk and stare at a computer. For lunch, I decided to go for a ride, just in order to have a concert and shake off the end of the week's blahs. I put on some Zac Brown Band, which always has a way of centering me whenever I'm off and reminding me to enjoy the little things, the present moment, and the gifts of the Universe. It worked.
I feel better... energized. Excited about what we're doing here, with this website and our life. Curious about where it's going to go, and the twists and turns we'll be taking to get there.
Lately, I keep getting bogged down by the naysayers out there and in my head. Those people and voices that remind me constantly of all of the difficulties that will lie ahead. Thanks Guys, I know. I've thought about that already. I just keep trying to tell myself, "THIS is difficult right now, if it is difficult later, well, at least it will be difficult in a different way." I mean, isn't it all trendy to quote the definition of insanity as "doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result?" We've been trying for years, as is, to change our financial situation little by little, bit by bit, without completely sacrificing our idea of a engaging lifestyle. Some of you will say "well, you might just have to sacrifice your lifestyle to get where you want to be, financially?" I want to say back, "then what is the point of doing it at all then?" If I did nothing at all with my life, yeah, maybe I would pay off my credit cards in 10 years instead of 33, but do I really want to spend the next 10 years doing nothing with my life? If this plan works at least somewhat like how I am imagining, then we would be able to get out of our credit card debt and way less than 10 years, and that would be awesome. If it doesn't work out at all, then I will still be in debt, but I will be living in a tiny space, using less energy, taking up less footprint, learning how to live a bit more minimally, which is something that I've been talking about doing for years... most of you have seen it. So, then, why throw stones at my dream for it's potential flaws? Why not buoy me up with words of encouragement and ideas for best outcome?
"You keep your heart above your head and you eyes wide open
So this world can't find a way to leave you cold
And know you're not the only ship out on the ocean
Save your strength for things that you can change
Forgive the ones you can't
You gotta let 'em go"
-Zac Brown Band-
My Sell My Crap page is really coming along, and it seems like it is all coming to fruition. I'm on the fence between trying to be hopeful of a positive sale and trying to be realistic that not everybody might be interested in my former "Stuff." It seems that this whole experience is one of pendulum emotions. I'm normally pretty even keeled so I'm trying to get used to the plunges of fear and incompetence and the surges of wonder and drive. Honestly, I'm not always the most emotional person in the world, so perhaps this is all part of the grand lesson.
I'm looking forward to all of the lessons that are sure to come with this adventure. I think they will be plentiful and priceless.